All Apologies

Sorry for all the promises I broke,
You should be the one I love the most,
Sorry for having gone and not stayed,
I left you out in the cold, frayed

Sorry for the times I forgot you were mine,
Sorry for the times I should have loved you
Sorry for keeping you second in line
I'd promised next time it'd be you

Sorry for promising you all,
Including your happiness first,
Sorry for letting you down,
For breaking your happiness first

I'd walk outside first in the morning
Feel the sunrays shine above my head
Then start to feel the sorrow and mourning
Start wishing myself to be dead

I'm screaming for all apologies from you,
I'm dying for all apologies from you,
I'm waiting for all apologies to myself.
I'm the one who almost got killed